Heyyy!
Ever wonder what it actually takes to be the happiest you can be?
Im generally a very happy person. I made my goal in life to be the happiest i can be. I like smiles. Laughter is my medicine. But have you ever found yourself thinking it just isn't working anymore?
If you have, i guess we are in the same train ride. I do realise life isnt full of happiness, and that some tears are normal. And healthy. But i keep finding myself in situations where i have to make an effort to smile and brighten up my day. A little too many times than usual. But i keep wondering, whats missing in my life? I have a family who loves me and i love, i have the perfect most loving boyfriend. Why do i still feel sad so often?
It got me thinking! Im the kind of person who does not share too much with anyone because it may make the other person unhappy. I filter my day out when talking to anyone. Omit whatever that happened that was not filled with rainbows and sunshine. Is this the reason i find myself constantly unhappy now? My strategy when sad is to force a smile on my face. That would make your day better, i think to myself. Im starting to feel like all I'm doing anymore is forcing a smile on my face. I feel as if i have a mask on and the inside of me is hollow.
My strategy might be totally wrong.
Its this thought that pushed me to do something new about my life. I need to change something. Im starting to realise that putting a smile in my face might not be the answer. Im still not comfortable with sharing every thought that comes to my head face to face with someone but i need to get it all out. The good and the bad of my day.
Perhaps i can write my feelings. Share with the world.
So here i am, taking the first step to what hopefully will be my happy little pill! Haha.
Hope uou decide to stay with me on the journey!
<3
